03 Mar The Changing Room Horror- Feeling badly about your size
So It’s no secret that I love, love, LOVE to shop. Clothes, hats, jewelry, scarves, bags, belts, pillows, lamps, rugs, bedding, prints, you name it! But I do the majority of my shopping online- why? I HATE changing rooms.
It’s really the whole process that annoys me: waiting in long lines, bringing multiple sizes, putting on, taking off, putting on, taking off, putting on, taking of. It’s just so tedious. I much rather buying on a whim and trying it on at home. If it doesn’t fit? Hey, that’s what the return policy is for.
But if I’m being honest the absolute WORST part about changing rooms is… Trying the different sizes. Having a size tell you how you look, even if you feel amazing is, well, like juggling knives. Especially if you’re a recovered eating disorder victim like myself.
I used to be a size 2, back when my eating disorder was roaring its ugly green head (yes my eating disorder was a green monster named ED, but no need to bring him into this now). Even as a 2 I would try and squeeze into the next size down and feel absolutely horrible and fat and ugly if I couldn’t squeeze my already skeletal frame into an even smaller size. During my recovery the numbers started going up.
It’s not the size that matters, it’s how you look in it…
MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY! Not the best thing for any girl to have to experience. The walk of shame to get the next size larger was enough to have me swear off shopping for a year! Unbelievable- I know.
Though I’m proudly recovered from Eating Disordered behavior, it’s still no picnic to be in the dressing room and realize you can no longer fit into the size that you thought you were and have to get the next size up.
But guess what I’ve finally realized (and it took no small length of time to realize it) but all brands size differently! So don’t get down on yourself if you have to take the next size up! That brand may just be a tighter fit. And the number you wear is far less important than how you feel. Think you look hot? Then by all means you look hot! Think you’ve lost weight? Well if YOU were able to notice the difference (for we all are our worst critiques and least likely to realize weight loss), then you HAVE lost weight.
Just remember: It’s not the size that matters, it’s how you look in it! Still don’t believe me? Well I think we can all agree that Scarlett Johansen, Beyonce, and Blake Lively (to name a few) all look AH-MAZING. Well guess what? The lot of them range from size 6 to size 8.
Say it with me: SCREW YOU SIZE 2!