Part 5: My 7 Deadly Sins - Greedy Girl

Start from Part 1: My 7 Deadly Sins - That Gluttonous Girl She doesn’t have a clothes closet, she has a clothes room.  Or you could say she has a bed in her closet.  I think of it as a store.  There are sweaters stacked up to practically the ceiling and a color coded T-shirt department in baskets along the floor. I’m sitting in the middle of the inventory right now.  She'll be home soon. My sister doesn't want me to be in her Read More...

Part 4: My 7 Deadly Sins - Wrath Becomes Me

Start from Part 1: My 7 Deadly Sins - That Gluttonous Girl After dinner I had the most horrible fight where I couldn’t even think straight. Its always the same argument.   The trigger is when he says “We can’t communicate”.  That’s when I feel like I can't control myself.  I can't stand hearing the same thing over and over again. If you believe that we can’t communicate, then why bother even trying to talk to me?  Isn’t it absurd to date someone and pretend Read More...

Ep. 3: Falling Into Real Life - I Was Changing

Read Ep. 1: Falling Into Real Life - I Feel Like I don't Fit In  Read Ep. 2: Falling Into Real Life - Lifting My Leg Off the Table  I went to college in Indiana, 800 or so miles away from my New Jersey home.  I purposely chose a large school with tons of options for education, sports, and fun.  I wanted the chance to kind of reinvent myself after everything that had gone on the previous two years and this seemed Read More...

Part 3: My 7 Deadly Sins - I Envy What I Cannot Have

Start from Part 1: My 7 Deadly Sins - That Gluttonous Girl My hair is fine and straight and dark and stubborn. It has weight, but not lift. It hangs, like limp clothes on a laundry line. My cousin Caitlin has a floating crown of honey blonde spiky curls that zing with energy. Her hair doesn’t flop, it bounces. Her hair says “I am a fertile sun soaked field of bounty". My hair says “I am a muddied-up creek bed”. We are at Read More...

Part 1: Oh, Brother! - He Arrived

  My mum miscarriaged twice. And then, one day, it happened.  A new addition to the family?  How very exciting for a little girl that has for so long been the princess of our little castle.  I was just 10.  I was going to be a big sister, wow!               A BABY BOY Derrick is my brother.  Our whole family was delighted upon his arrival.  They believe, as I am sure with me, that he was a gift from God.  Baby Derrick was so adorable. Read More...

This Thing Called Love

Imagine a world without pain; without heartbreak and disappointment and confusion.  That doesn't sound all too bad does it?  It actually sounds quite nice.  But to take away the pain you must also take away the happiness and excitement and love. Love is a double edged sword: Without love you can't have pain, without pain you can't have love.  Not very fair huh? When you read about love in books, see it in films, hear it from peers, they describe it as eternal Read More...